Chasing the Black Butterfly

And I am starting to wonder if it's really only on the fifth place of my pairing list.. (though the other pairings I have there are so gorgeous beyond words that what am I to say?) 

Honestly why oh why? ε-(´・｀) I know that ranting is a little out of the place and time right now, especially with all the other things happening in Nana manga, but I simply cannot understand why on earth Takumi and Reira cannot be together（ToT）. Okay, I can try to understand the reasons, but I am unable to get on with them. The reunion scene made my heart feel crushed and it stayed this way up to this moment. Honestly, that pairing is so build on untold words and hidden emotions it simply makes you feel saddened and immensily captivated at the same time. It's good to know though Takumi at least doesn't lack common sense and knows what he really wants to do and who hurts the most right now. With all the things happening before I simply couldn't tell what was he up to do, but at least I feel glad that turned out like this. Honestly. Even that chapter shoved that in the future no one is really happy. Who would it hurt if Takumi and Reira where really together? The children? Everything about it sounds really weird. So Reira is in England, where Takumi is but they aren't together. Takumi works there but for God's sake if it's the only reason couldn't he simply find a well-paid job in Japan? Don't tell me that there was none for him and he couldn't help it. Then again his son is really onto his father but seems to have something against being with his mother. He doesn't have anything against being with Reira though, quite the opposite. With Trapnest being probably disbanded due to the all circumstances so far it wouldn't be a problem for them to be together, since they wouldn't have to really mind the . And with Hachi having still definite thing for Nobu (yes, I believe it is quite obvious they both do) this whole situation is getting stranger and stranger.

Sigh.. If it were Gokinjo times there wouldn't be a problem. But well, I quess that's Nana for you.. ＼（－－）／
By the way Takurei sounds so pretty ♥ (came up with it a few minutes ago). I quess that's what I will call it right now. Hope to post some Takurei soon..

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Oh God, I change my mind, I so love Takumi for doing this..

If I had to choose one most annoying favourite character of mine I quess Takumi would have gotten the first place right now.
It's not that his actions cannot be explained properly.
It's just that I am getting more and more worried I don't have any power left to explain them..



What a pain it must be to be apart from each other (one sentence translated poorly by me with a dictionary, but I quess the sense is sth like this). Probably when this goes to the one-and-only official translation right now, it will become something like 'You should eat raspberries when in pain, raspberries are good when you are not together'. Please don't try to find any sense in what I just said.

Honestly what an irony.. （；_・）
BTW for a sleeping guy who ignores his wife pretending to sleep you are quite thougthfool Takumi .. （￣～￣）
But I quess I am kind of happy since I didn't expect even one TakumixReira scene in this chapter.

Looking at this I feel so defeated ―(T_T)→
I know that Yazawa-sensei hasn't finished her story yet and that all things might still happen in the future but I simply hope something might still change. Though I honestly have no idea how it could happen.

Also.. I think everyone should see the final scene in this chapter. In no way I am a Ren x Nana shipper and yet there is one of the most saddening scenes Yazawa-sensei ever drew in there. That's all I quess.

What do I say?
...
...

Nothing comes to mind. It's sad. Painfully, overbearingly sad, but there is probably nothing that can be done about it. Simply nothing. And it hurts.

I can already see all those TakumixReira haters, who will be all like 'See? We told you. Takumi doesn't love Reira. Takumi loves Hachi. He is soooo happy with her. Who cares he cheates on her and is in jerkish (I cannot call it any other way at the moment, not after this chapter, sumimasen Takumi) mood almost all the time while being with her, it's such true love because it started with smex and every pairing should.'

There is hardly anything more to write, so let's replace meaningless words with the picture.



If you still don't get it, than you probably never will.
In that case just become a solid TakumixHachi shipper.
There's hardly any hope for you either way.

Wow.. before I knew it, it was 26th .. (･_･ )
New Nana chapter is on the way, but I don't know whether to be happy with the fact or not
（￣へ￣）
Of course I'd love to see some Takumi x Reira after all of this happened (since the previous chapter didn't show a thing concerning the matter) but I was so hoping and believing in a better ending my hopes got crushed (*´ο`*)=3
Maybe, given the situation it's just impossible for them to stay together. Maybe it's simply because Takumi would have to change and he doesn't believe it's possible, since he doesn't consider himself a worth person. I don't really know at the moment; it takes longer thinking than that.

So, while I'm waiting - this time quite patiently - for the new chapter, I will take my time playing Lineage ヘ(^_^ヘ)(ノ^_^)ノ Fortunatelly, I managed to install and configure it quite properly and I simply cannot wait to create my character.

( ^‐^)_且~~ (brings herself tea to drink)
That's about it for now.

Okay.. am I feeling confused with things happening here.
To be honest.. I didn't see it coming. Or rather, I couldn't see it coming =_= but am I feeling depressed. The way things are..seems just too sad and I feel like saying 'the hell with this'.

But still is Yazawa-sensei keeping us totally in the dark. Actually I'm out of any ideas at the moment. It seemed easy before, now it doesn't.

Okay, so let's say Takumi and Reira aren't together in the future (I feel like hitting something hard) .. we can .. um.. well, we have to =__="" assume that. Okay .. I hate it when the couples who are destined to be together aren't together. The way things are right now, ...

"Simply for the sake of my job, I sacrificed everything and now I am getting retribution for it"

Somebody explain this sentence to me please.
Unfortunatelly it seems like one of those 'if you don't know the further plot you won't undestand it' things =_="

... I really feel like hitting something hard.

Ok, I haven't read the chapter yet.
I haven't even seen it.
The fact is.. I've read some spoilers.. and my heart feels like it's going to explode any moment **@O@**



"I will die of loneliness if I have to live depending on a dream"
"If so I will die as well"
He kissed her and closed the door to her room behind her.



...
...
(is dying)
(omg is sooo dying)

>_<" But how can you be so cruel Yazawa-sensei? The next chapter comes out not before April!
It's like.. TWO MONTHS TIME! O_O"

... still the very thought of what was suggested at the end..
it's beyond my means of comprehension now..

(died)

Maybe in two months time I will get used to this (happy I believe?) news for Takumi x Reira?
Please, my lifetime wish, let them be happy Yazawa-sensei! /O\
Don't let Takumi make anymore stupid things.. and make him never again let go of that person he is about to hold in his arms. Please?

At the moment, I am so happy I could die. Oh God.. I am so happy for them. O_O

Thank you for such an amazingly beautiful Christmas Present Yazawa-sensei **/__\** (cries).