Chasing the Black Butterfly

Actually not some royai, but what royai..!
I haven't been into Fullmetal so much lately, but that made me love the manga from the first sight once again.
God do I love Roy. God do I love Riza. God do I love them both!! ♥♥♥
The newest fullmetal chapter (aka number 93) is simply brilliant and it's a real torture not knowing what happens next.
Though I believe I have to take a break.. seeing royai in more than three frames might make me unable to think rationally after that much break from it. And. I. Simply. Loved. That. Dialog..



I died (￣▽￣)ノ＿彡☆
I died so much I didn't notice I was probably smiling like an idiot till the ending of chapter with a continuous bursts of uncontrollable laughter.
Ah ~ Somehow I feel so newborn. Please don't mind me.. those are just unbosomings of a maniacal royai fangirl who didn't get her favourite pairing for about half a year now. I will be fine in a few days.

But to be quite honest for a moment I got a blank memory and didn't really get the taking back part right, thinking about Ishval for some unknown reason (。_゜) And completely forgetting for the whole 10 sec. about that (which makes me believe I ought to read the manga once more.. or rather my favourite royai parts (＾□＾*) ).

(ehem it refers to this thing （＾ ＾）)



Anyway one of the best chapters ever .. especially with THAT cliffhanger at the end. Okay, I will admit it. Roy looked his scariest ever.
I quess we can only hope that things dont go really bad .. I mean it's obvious they WILL at some point but for now at least it doesn't look hopelessly. What more can I say? Since I got royai fever I will gladly spoil what I can. Please enjoy （￣ー￣）ニヤ








And the beautiful thing is - that's not all *O*
Ah ~ What a great first birthday present (￣▽￣)

Okay.. I've spent two last hours playing my favourite Trickster Online in order to relax.
Or so I thought. Before I met some people @_@"
I understand that for most people games are way of enjoying themselves. But why on earth do they have to act so retarded while doing that is one thing that is beyond my understanding. I mean, if they did act that way in normal daily situations they would be considered dangerous or unimportant, but still freaks.
I do not say this to offend anyone, but I believe it wouldn't hurt some people to think how are they acting while in virtual reality and would they really act the same in normal life.

And now, for something completely different..

Case 1.
A girl who wanted a million.. and some other stuff would be nice too.

Me: (goes around while killing monsters, looking for a particular item)
Girl: (whispers to me out of the blue)
Girl: I have only 50 000 money [about as much]
Me: ...? And? [thinks it isn't that little for a 15lvl character]
Girl: And I want money
Me: What does that have to do with me?
Girl: Do you want money?
Me: (after a pause) ... No?
Girl: WHY NOT?
Me: Because I have 2 mln money?
Girl: OMG!! LOL! Incredible!
Me: ... Uh, thanks you appreciate it.
Me: (goes away hoping the voice will go away. it was really only the voice, she spoke to me all of a sudden, and I didn't even know when did she spot me).
Me: (goes around killing some more monsters).
Girl: Where are you? Make me your friend.
Me: ...uh? Don't we have to see each other for such things?
Girl: Where are you?
Me: ........
(I told her I was going to end the game for today. Unfortunatelly she found me, because I was too polite to say go away and told her the place a little since she was nagging).
(So we met and then she tried saying 'Hi' for 5 times in three different windows - normal, whisper and message to friend. And finally she asked for a trade. I thought I would give her some cat pet and she would go away. But it was better.. @_@)
Me: ... (looking at the trade window with O_O eyes. How did it get to this?)
Me: Listen I have to go and get some sleep.
Girl: Give me 1 mln.
Me: (fell out of the chair).
Me: ... (was speachless so didn't answer for a moment)
Girl: Gold [it's good she wanted to make herself clear, but what else could she wanted? mln carrots?]
Me: ... (tries to be polite) But you know I have only 2 mln, and there are also some items I want to buy.
Girl: I know but give me million.
Me: ...
Me: (tries to think of a way of the situation)
Me: (gives her a cat pet. says it's for free. Normally you have to pay about 10.000 to get one).
Girl: I want million.
Me: (tries to not listen to what she is saying).
Me: Listen, I can give you this pet and you don't have to give me anything for it (tries to run away from a stupid situations). And I really have to go.
Girl: ...
Me: (smiles thinking she will be at least reasonable at the end)
Girl: Give me a 15 lvl pet. [I ALREADY GAVE YOU YOU AIRHEAD]
Girl: Give me a 15 lvl weapon. [WHY SHOULD I HAVE SUCH AT 46 LVL?]
(after a pause)
Girl: And give me million.

I died XD.
I have to write this, since I believe some stupidities should be left to the world, for a warning.
And I also believe stupidities are funny to read. Hope anyone enjoyed it and I'll be back with more.. I am afraid @x@"

And I am starting to wonder if it's really only on the fifth place of my pairing list.. (though the other pairings I have there are so gorgeous beyond words that what am I to say?) 

Honestly why oh why? ε-(´・｀) I know that ranting is a little out of the place and time right now, especially with all the other things happening in Nana manga, but I simply cannot understand why on earth Takumi and Reira cannot be together（ToT）. Okay, I can try to understand the reasons, but I am unable to get on with them. The reunion scene made my heart feel crushed and it stayed this way up to this moment. Honestly, that pairing is so build on untold words and hidden emotions it simply makes you feel saddened and immensily captivated at the same time. It's good to know though Takumi at least doesn't lack common sense and knows what he really wants to do and who hurts the most right now. With all the things happening before I simply couldn't tell what was he up to do, but at least I feel glad that turned out like this. Honestly. Even that chapter shoved that in the future no one is really happy. Who would it hurt if Takumi and Reira where really together? The children? Everything about it sounds really weird. So Reira is in England, where Takumi is but they aren't together. Takumi works there but for God's sake if it's the only reason couldn't he simply find a well-paid job in Japan? Don't tell me that there was none for him and he couldn't help it. Then again his son is really onto his father but seems to have something against being with his mother. He doesn't have anything against being with Reira though, quite the opposite. With Trapnest being probably disbanded due to the all circumstances so far it wouldn't be a problem for them to be together, since they wouldn't have to really mind the . And with Hachi having still definite thing for Nobu (yes, I believe it is quite obvious they both do) this whole situation is getting stranger and stranger.

Sigh.. If it were Gokinjo times there wouldn't be a problem. But well, I quess that's Nana for you.. ＼（－－）／
By the way Takurei sounds so pretty ♥ (came up with it a few minutes ago). I quess that's what I will call it right now. Hope to post some Takurei soon..

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Oh God, I change my mind, I so love Takumi for doing this..

Just a small note before going to sleep that I finally saw the bigger version of the new Clamp in Cardland special card (the one with Subaru and Seishirou). To be honest I don't know what hit me more, but I quess Sei-chan in the background. I mean his smile is so disarming I almost fell off the chair when I first saw it. Not to mention, is it just me or does Subaru-chan have this cute, characteristic for him expression when he is not fully content with something? As if Hokuto-chan was taking that photo teasing Subaru a little at the same time （*＾＾）
Cute beyond words ♥♥♥



Either way, yay for the new card and new illustration （ ＾＾）Y☆Y(＾^ ）
It's surely a must-have for me (the left part that is). Though come to think it will probably cost me fortune to get it (^～^)

And by that I don't mean the hair colour.. not yet that is (’-’*)
Actually I had some doubts before reading the series since I've heard it wasn't so good, but somehow I've been wanting to get to know it for a while now (just out of curiosity) and it turned out I am already at the 10th volume after less than 4 days. o(^^o)(o^^)o わくわく

And I'm totally in love with Rukia at the moment ♥
I hope Ichigo goes and saves her soon U_U I don't want Rukia to be executed.
Actually one of the reasons I went and started reading the manga, was due to the pairing fight happening inside the fandom too ^_^" I mean I wanted to see for myself what is causing such ruckuss but I want state my opinion yet (well, it would be probably too early of me to do so) though the way things go right now I am hoping for Ichigo x Rukia pairing obviously..

Because Tokyo Babylon is the one and only manga, where you spend your time with an assassin for a year and have so much fun due to it.
And it's absolute love ♥

It so happened I was capable of putting my hands on a Clamp Newtype Platinum a little while ago.
I bought it because of the 18.5 X volume that came with it, but never expected what a gorgeous thing the magazine itself is *O* ~ ☆ (even better than the manga itself, I thought it would at least come with the hard cover or something).
So many pictures, including very rare ones (that I have only seen in very poor resolution or haven't seen at all)! Now I have to practice japanese more, since it would be a real waste to have it and not be able to read it (is ashamed =.=)

Anyway, I thought some people might like it if I shared some Tokyo Babylon pictures.
I scanned all of them myself, but you're free to take them *^_^*
Hope you like them.. ♥

[the pictures will be put here soon]
[sorry for not posting them yet, was feeling kind of bad lately]

Found these pictures somewhere on the net and taking into consideration how .. mmmm... great last Tsubasa Tokyo Revelations OAV was I thought it was necessary to put right meanings behind those fantastic pictures. (ﾉ´∀｀*)ﾉ Or something like that. Or I was simply bored （￣ー￣）Anyway, if there is something to enjoying, please enjoy!

And yes, I disliked the OAVs.
What the characters really had in mind. Part 1 - Subaru Kamui.




I will be back with more later! (* ﾟ▽ﾟ)

Quote taken from the one-and-only polish manga publishing house called JPF (translated by me a little messy into english).
I hope they drown themselves quickly.

Likewise, there was another series who shared the same popularity - six-volume series entitled "Tokyo Babylon"; a story about demons, which was published since 1991 till 1994 in the South magazine; drawn in a very simple manner, almost looking like sketch. Both stories are very worth looking into, since anime producers were interested in them.

First of all, since when TB is a demon-hunting story? Maybe Ghostbusters already? (Or is Subaru-chan a demon? (￣▽￣)ノ＿彡☆)
Second of all, it so happens it's a 7 volumes series, not six.
Third, it was published in Wings Comics distributed by Shinshokan publishing company. South, yes, but South Shinshokan, not South Wings.
Fourth, what's with the sketch thing? I mean sketch? It's not Naoko Takeuchi for God's sake!
Fifth, there are much more important things when it comes to TB than that so-called anime. Is that anime even TB related? Besides for the fact that Hokuto is trying to kill everyone with her high-pitched voice but Subaru and Seishirou could care less staring at each other in such a lovey-dovey manner?
And sixth, as far as I know and as it is written in the last volume it was 1990 - 1993, not 1991-1994 (Though the annex things are from 1994, but I somehow doubt they were that precise =_=" Clamp says 1993).
Honestly, I wonder who wrote this stupidity, because I've never seen so many mistakes in two sentences only.
( 　ﾟ,_ゝﾟ)

To crown the workings of the four girls, a high-budgetary animated film entitled 'X The Movie' directed by the famous Rin Taro, was produced. Could somebody even want anything more?

Yes. You might want to kill yourself, when somebody encourages you that this kind of movie is a prize for all your hard work so far. Honestly~ （￣へ￣）...

There are times in your life when you just have to summarize some things and I quess it's high time for me too (・_・ ). That is if I want to truly cherish all of my Tokyo Babylon things collected so far. Also whenever I go on eBay I ask myself just why-oh-why did I ever create that account. But the thing is I could't be any happier even without some money left, I quess 八(＾□＾*)

So, not to delay anymore, here is the complete list of Seishirou x Subaru items I've put my hands on so far (divided into small sections). _〆(・∀・*)



Tokyo Babylon vol. 1, 3, 5-7 (japanese edition)
X Clamp vol. 1-16 (japanese edition)
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle deluxe version vol. 6, 7, 10 (Seishirou cover), 16, 17.
Clamp Newtype Platinum magazine with X Clamp vol. 18.5

Tokyo Babylon Photographs Artbook
Tokyo Babylon Postcard Book (+ 4 double postcards)
Tokyo Babylon 1992 Calendar
X Zero (Hard Cover edition with a box)
Clamp North Side (contains Clamp in Wonderland images)
Clamp in Wonderland Postcard Book

Tokyo Babylon Image Soundtrack
Tokyo Babylon Image Soundtrack 2
X Character file drama CD (1996) - Subaru / Satsuki

Clamp in 3D Land Seishirou figure (original japanese foil-wrapped in a box)
Clamp in Cardland official card binder B (with Subaru / Hikari illustration)
Clamp in Cardland series 2 rare promo card P007 (with Shoten illustration)
Clamp in Cardland series 2 four Tokyo Babylon cards
Clamp in Cardland series 3 two Tokyo Babylon cards (all Tokyo Babylon set!)
X Clamp Trading Cards Limited Edition packs I, II, III.

Tokyo Babylon shitajiki I (Seishirou x Subaru vol. 1 image, Clamp Original Goods 1992)
Tokyo Babylon shitajiki II (Seishirou x Subaru, two-sided)
Tokyo Babylon clear file (from Clamp in Wonderland event)
Clamp Su clear file blue version (with Subaru)
X Clamp Clear Poster (Seishirou x Subaru illustration)

Replica co doujinshi Sakana ha (Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle)
Replica co doujinshi Claim Cracker (X)
Replica co doujinshi Mind Darkness (Tokyo Babylon)
Replica co doujinshi Like Love (Tokyo Babylon)

added: Clamp in Wonderland Seishirou x Subaru Mouse Pad (1994)
added: Clamp in Wonderland Collectible Folder (with an illustration not published anywhere else).

All I can say is: wow ∑(O_O；)
And I am sooo not selling those ( ^ _ ^)∠☆

Last updated: 30.09.2008.

If I had to choose one most annoying favourite character of mine I quess Takumi would have gotten the first place right now.
It's not that his actions cannot be explained properly.
It's just that I am getting more and more worried I don't have any power left to explain them..



What a pain it must be to be apart from each other (one sentence translated poorly by me with a dictionary, but I quess the sense is sth like this). Probably when this goes to the one-and-only official translation right now, it will become something like 'You should eat raspberries when in pain, raspberries are good when you are not together'. Please don't try to find any sense in what I just said.

Honestly what an irony.. （；_・）
BTW for a sleeping guy who ignores his wife pretending to sleep you are quite thougthfool Takumi .. （￣～￣）
But I quess I am kind of happy since I didn't expect even one TakumixReira scene in this chapter.

Looking at this I feel so defeated ―(T_T)→
I know that Yazawa-sensei hasn't finished her story yet and that all things might still happen in the future but I simply hope something might still change. Though I honestly have no idea how it could happen.

Also.. I think everyone should see the final scene in this chapter. In no way I am a Ren x Nana shipper and yet there is one of the most saddening scenes Yazawa-sensei ever drew in there. That's all I quess.

What do I say?
...
...

Nothing comes to mind. It's sad. Painfully, overbearingly sad, but there is probably nothing that can be done about it. Simply nothing. And it hurts.

I can already see all those TakumixReira haters, who will be all like 'See? We told you. Takumi doesn't love Reira. Takumi loves Hachi. He is soooo happy with her. Who cares he cheates on her and is in jerkish (I cannot call it any other way at the moment, not after this chapter, sumimasen Takumi) mood almost all the time while being with her, it's such true love because it started with smex and every pairing should.'

There is hardly anything more to write, so let's replace meaningless words with the picture.



If you still don't get it, than you probably never will.
In that case just become a solid TakumixHachi shipper.
There's hardly any hope for you either way.

Wow.. before I knew it, it was 26th .. (･_･ )
New Nana chapter is on the way, but I don't know whether to be happy with the fact or not
（￣へ￣）
Of course I'd love to see some Takumi x Reira after all of this happened (since the previous chapter didn't show a thing concerning the matter) but I was so hoping and believing in a better ending my hopes got crushed (*´ο`*)=3
Maybe, given the situation it's just impossible for them to stay together. Maybe it's simply because Takumi would have to change and he doesn't believe it's possible, since he doesn't consider himself a worth person. I don't really know at the moment; it takes longer thinking than that.

So, while I'm waiting - this time quite patiently - for the new chapter, I will take my time playing Lineage ヘ(^_^ヘ)(ノ^_^)ノ Fortunatelly, I managed to install and configure it quite properly and I simply cannot wait to create my character.

( ^‐^)_且~~ (brings herself tea to drink)
That's about it for now.

... both are believed to be true anyway, depends on whether we read one particular novel or not.

(,,#ﾟДﾟ):∴;'･,;`:ｺﾞﾙｧ!!
For God's Sake! And by Sake I mean sake, not drink.
I knew the novel thing was a stupid thing, but I didn't know it was stupid to such extent.
And to think I was even wondering whether to read it at some point..
NO WAY~! o(>< )o ｏ( ><)o There's simply no way I'm reading this crap.

Actually this whole incoherence of Death Note makes me feel more and more angry（￣～￣;）
Whether the thing about 'girlfriend' is true or not.. the fandom made sure to hide it pretty well.
But than again I quess there is no reason to hide things; the novel is hardly to be called a part of the manga; it's just the author's.. vision (*・_・)ノ⌒*

By the way, trying to bring some light on this subject not even worth mentioning probably (but I'm such busybody) I've found out that Mero's girlfriend is Misa.
So much for the help of people on the subject (・－・)
(On second thought that suggestion wasn't so bad, since other people suggested it is Hal ∑(O_O；))

I'll probably just leave it at this. Since it's obviously some random from the even more random author *no offense but please stop messing up Mero's life okay?* and since he uses code, we can safely assume when he means girlfriend he means Matt. Don't try to find logic in this statement.

ホーリー！！( ・_・）ノ　ζ|||ζ <-- uses magic so that the bad things will go away.

I always thought Clamp should be the one to create that pairing.

.. but it makes me so happy! (≧∇≦)



Actually the quiz was kind of hard, since it had some stupid non-manga questions, and I had to guess on those with what I've heard. A real TB test should be from the manga only, yep （｀ー´）
Still, I actually forgot Subaru's birthday (ﾟДﾟ≡ﾟДﾟ) which only made me think I've to re-read TB more (of course in the end I've choosen the right answer, but still it made me feel ashamed of myself).

(ﾟﾍﾟ) ...
(･_･ )Please forgive me on that one, Subaru-chan.

...
First of all, I saw the TRC illustration.
To be honest.. I don't know what to think of it. Read it like: I expected to see something else and I don't really know what to make of it .. yet that is. But if I were to try anyway.. I find it extremely sad somehow.



It leaves me astonished every time I look at it.
The thing is no matter how we look at it, Subaru seems to be protecting Sei-chan. And his expression is as heartbreaking as ever. Sad, troubled.. or simply pained. Sei-chan on the other side is in his totally evil smirk state.. I don't know why but the illustration somehow reminds me of the situation have they finally met with Kamui trying to harm Seishirou. Which is not all that random since about three chapters ago we had this particular cover illustration, which looks to me like a 'sibling' one to this. See for yourself.



Since I first saw it I was always wondering what was Kamui looking at with that evidently doubting/not liking what he sees expression of his. Actually it would make a lot of sense if those two illustrations were connected even slightly.

Nevertheless the picture is beyond words.. and Subaru is pure beauty as ever.. though I'd love it if he wouldn't look so sad one day; jaded and tormented Subaru is really the most saddening thing ever.. it takes away about 20% of his beauty (though he is infinitely beautiful so it doesn't even change a thing ^_-) Also it's good to see your smirk Sei-chan =_=' we all know how insecure you become when Subaru is not anywhere nearby so we are all happy for you.. Just pay a little attention to his needs, will you? (well, personally I believe he will this time; it's just Sei-chan is always looking like bigger evil than he actually is).

Kya kya kya kya kya ***>W<****
Okay, the point is I haven't seen it yet, but from what I heard so far ...
...
It must look great! ****OoO****
Finally Seishirou x Subaru cover..
Finally...
I am so ...
so...

(dies)

***>O<*** Where is it, I want to see it quick! (goes to look for it without a rest)
My Sei-chan x Subaru cover~!

（　ﾟ Дﾟ）

Okay.. am I feeling confused with things happening here.
To be honest.. I didn't see it coming. Or rather, I couldn't see it coming =_= but am I feeling depressed. The way things are..seems just too sad and I feel like saying 'the hell with this'.

But still is Yazawa-sensei keeping us totally in the dark. Actually I'm out of any ideas at the moment. It seemed easy before, now it doesn't.

Okay, so let's say Takumi and Reira aren't together in the future (I feel like hitting something hard) .. we can .. um.. well, we have to =__="" assume that. Okay .. I hate it when the couples who are destined to be together aren't together. The way things are right now, ...

"Simply for the sake of my job, I sacrificed everything and now I am getting retribution for it"

Somebody explain this sentence to me please.
Unfortunatelly it seems like one of those 'if you don't know the further plot you won't undestand it' things =_="

... I really feel like hitting something hard.

Ok, I haven't read the chapter yet.
I haven't even seen it.
The fact is.. I've read some spoilers.. and my heart feels like it's going to explode any moment **@O@**



"I will die of loneliness if I have to live depending on a dream"
"If so I will die as well"
He kissed her and closed the door to her room behind her.



...
...
(is dying)
(omg is sooo dying)

>_<" But how can you be so cruel Yazawa-sensei? The next chapter comes out not before April!
It's like.. TWO MONTHS TIME! O_O"

... still the very thought of what was suggested at the end..
it's beyond my means of comprehension now..

(died)

Maybe in two months time I will get used to this (happy I believe?) news for Takumi x Reira?
Please, my lifetime wish, let them be happy Yazawa-sensei! /O\
Don't let Takumi make anymore stupid things.. and make him never again let go of that person he is about to hold in his arms. Please?

At the moment, I am so happy I could die. Oh God.. I am so happy for them. O_O

Thank you for such an amazingly beautiful Christmas Present Yazawa-sensei **/__\** (cries).